I shut down the blog a couple of months ago for a few reasons. The first reason was frustration. I was trying to get through the Daisy Chain of Events series and was in the process of reaching the peak of that series when Blogspot began removing several of the posts. This was due to the nature of what I was sharing. The psychological and sexual harassment, along with the threats to my life, were definitely quite graphic. But I had no warning, and the drafts of those posts were also deleted.
The thought of having to parse through what I had already covered and try to figure out what I had to go back over completely exhausted me. It took significant emotional labor to put together those posts in the first place. That said, I do intend to finish that series someday. I will probably transfer what I currently have onto static pages and then continue the series from there. I will share those links when that time comes. It's just something I feel like I need to do.
Okay, so onto the second reason. It's obvious that I was deeply traumatized by the events of last spring, summer, and fall (2025). I knew I was not okay. I didn't even really start to feel like myself again until late December 2025. Plus, there were some other things taking place in my personal life that I won't share publicly, but they were significant. And they were heavy. I was an emotional and hormonal mess. I'm still navigating the massive transition that surgical menopause brings upon someone so young.
I'm still in the messy middle. But I am just beginning to feel a sense of direction emerging once more. Part of the solution is to embrace my chaos and not try to niche myself down. I have to keep reminding myself of this, again and again. Another part of the solution is to allow myself an online space where I can stream-of-consciousness freely (and safely), as I am doing in this very post. So that's what HermaJestar.com (or hermajestar.blogpsot.com) is to become. Just the online space where I dump some of my personal thoughts and document all of my wild synchronicities.
This brings me into the third reason. I will be restructuring what I started in 2024-2025. I let some of the domains I had purchased expire. I was scattering myself in too many directions at once, but I was also still trying to needlessly play by the content creation mill rules. There will be no more of that. This is partly what I mean when I say that I am embracing my chaos. I can only post or create when I feel called to do so, as my limited energy demands. This means that there will be cycles of time where I am hyper-focused in one area, only to seemingly abandon it for another. But that supposed abandonment is temporary. I always circle back. Is this blog not evidence of that? I know I've been a bit redundant with statements like these in past posts, but it's worth repeating.
Articles on consciousness, the tarot, astrology, psychic abilities, et cetera will no longer be shared here. I will be sharing those types of posts in another blog or website. Do expect future posts on here to include incidents occurring with my haunted items! I still want to create a separate website just for my haunted objects, especially as my collection grows. If I had to guess, I now have around 17-18 potentially haunted objects. At least 11 of those objects have a definite attachment. But there are a few I am still unsure about. I also think my giant golden mirror is now an open portal. It has been making a lot of sounds lately. I'll explore this further in my follow-up post. So please stay tuned!
