Disclaimer: This post contains my firsthand account of documented harassment and stalking behavior. The events described are supported by evidence, including messages and timestamps. Any opinions expressed are grounded in personal experience and the impact this behavior has had on my safety and well-being.
If you haven't already, go back and read these parts first before continuing:
Okay, now where did we leave off? Oh, that's right: April 21st, 2025. I leapt from 10.3k followers to 14.1k followers. And while I understand that these numbers are nowhere near comparable to many well-established influencers out there, this was a huge deal for me. Especially with this happening all at once, unexpectedly, and so suddenly. To have my phone blow up with thousands upon thousands of men trying to talk to me (all at the same time) was beyond surreal. Similarly, their behavior was not normal. They were collectively fawning over me like they'd encountered some rare exotic celebrity sighting. The messages and videos they were sending were over-the-top. Paralleling the Kyle situation, the vibrations were not immediately nasty. Many of these men were also quite charming and disarming. It was a total thrill ride. Pour some sugar on me!
Between the messages I was receiving on Facebook and the snaps I was receiving on Snapchat, I was overwhelmed. For the moment, it was what I needed to help me navigate my post-breakup status.
On April 22nd, 2025, I hosted another Q&A/Story Time session. I skyrocketed to 17.1k followers. That's where my follower count on Snapchat maxed out and has plateaued (holding at about 16.6k followers ever since, even though I haven't been active on there lately. I do plan on making a comeback). From 7.1k to 17.1k five days later. Mind-blowing. And what imagery kept coming up the whole time?
The Viral Surge that comes in Waves The Great Wave off Kanagawa by Katsushika Hokusai
Before I continue, let's review some of the wildly exaggerated, entitled, and audacious messages I was getting during these surges:
What a tempting and flattering offer! How can I refuse?!
Several men were finding me on my public Instagram, where it was much easier to cut through the noise and actually reach me:
Pretty pushy for someone who just wants 'friendship':
I felt like I lost a few brain cells with this one:
'God' (Kyle) continued interacting with my stories on Snapchat and sending me snaps at this time.
By April 24th, 2025, I recognized that Kyle's behavior was becoming increasingly manic. He'd once tiptoed around my boundaries, careful not to upset the apple cart, but his obsessions and delusions soon overrode that caution. And right on schedule, might I add! Because Heather wasn't going to be able to get away with having surgery on her ovary without a Kyle there to harass her through it! Heaven forbid we go easy on her while her life is already on the line! Let's just terrorize, stalk, defame, and sexually harass her while she's going through it. (Getting slightly ahead of myself, but that part is still to come.)
Pant-Shitting Time (FAFO)
"I hope you have your shitting pants on!" - Negan, The Walking Dead
I know someone 👶 who might benefit from having these on hand:
Side note: This will become clearer in future parts, but Kyle watches this blog. Steals content from here to twist and alter to fit his delusional narrative. He claims it's just for 'entertainment,' but let's not mince words here. What he's doing isn't 'controversial art,' it's criminal behavior. He can try to rewrite history all he wants, but I've documented everythingthoroughly for the authorities. When you openly broadcast your crimes online for everyone to see, you're digging your own hole.
"Because I know if you have a man I am still the most high"
"Nothing is enough for me except domination"
Paraphilic infantilism. 👶 "I dun call girls mum. It's not a thing I do" (while calling me mummy)
Goodbye impulse control!
This was just the beginning. Had I known what this was going to escalate into, I would have more carefully documented those earlier messages. It was more of the same manic, narcissistic, delusional, grandiose ramblings.
AS I am receiving these messages from Kyle, I receive a follow request on Threads from someone else from my past. More unwanted attention from someone who I have repeatedly told to leave me alone. I won't share a screenshot of the person or their username, but it exists. I have it should I ever need it. Now more than ever, I'm making a habit of keeping all of my receipts. Anyway, this person showed up at my home one night (to 'leave a letter' because they 'forgot my mailing address') after I had rejected them. Year after year, rejection after rejection, this person is still lurking. As if I didn't already have enough predatory eyes on me.
That same day, multiple exes came crawling out of the woodwork. THAT SAME DAY. People from my past were noticing that I was getting noticed. It's the age-old story: perceived value spikes, and suddenly they want what others want—only because others want it. Leeches. Zombies. Fair-weather ghosts.
Okay, for this next part, you're going to want to get out your popcorn. We're venturing further into the Kyle saga, and this is when things go completely off the rails. Stay tuned!
February 5th, 2025: This is the same neighbor described later on in this post in a screenshot from October 30th, 2024 who was screaming about her dead cat.
I just discovered that my neighbor, directly across the hallway, has died. She was found about a week ago. All I know about her death was that she had Covid & she had fallen. I feel so awful for not hearing it or being able to help. I can confirm that she was still alive on January 16th.
Deja vu:
So the fire actually happened on the floor right above my apartment. It sounds like someone fell asleep with a lit cigarette. My floor smells like smoke now, and one of the apartments on my floor has flooded.
A pattern that closely paralled several chains of events that had happened in August 2023. In this post I share screenshots detailing that chain of events (note: That friend that I tagged in the post? @BakedBlue. That is the friend who recently passed away, which I wrote about here.):
I'm in bed because I need to be up early. But I haven't turned the lights out yet, and it suddenly feels like my cat jumps up onto the bed with me. I turn to look, and there is nothing there. The door is shut and she is in the living room (she can't sleep in here at night, she's too clumsy/demonic).
I'm not sure what happened. Something kept beeping out in the hallway, but it wasn't the fire alarm.
I think they've left now. But they were inside my neighbor's apartment, checking something out. And there is a strange chemical smell in the air.
Made this post (see attached) at 9:49pm.
And you can see I am recording that clip (see above post) right after I posted this—at 9:53pm.
I was having deja vu the entire time. Feeling seizure-y.
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Which reminds me of this incident on May 4th, 2016—I was having a conversation via FB messenger with a friend and started having 'brain sliding' sensations. While that was happening, my phone was glitching out and then the friend I was messaging started having the same issue with their phone:
And then this just happened (and this went on for a while):
(Visuals censored for privacy, but this was recorded through my window.)
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See the correlation? The apartment on the floor above me caught fire on the 22nd of February, and I posted about tech issues on the 21st (the day before). That same disruptive Uranus-Pluto energy is active now.
✔️ Mom is going through congestive heart failure/heart attack again (during eclipse season, again). She's not currently in the hospital, but the situation is rocky (although she 🗝currently🗝 seems stable) right now.
✔️ I have another large CLUSTER of cysts growing on my (only) ovary. I had to have surgery this time last year (during eclipse season) to have it removed (my cysts tend to become monster tumors). It was our last ditch effort to save the ovary/give it one last chance
This means full hysterectomy soon
Today, I had my ultrasound.
Tomorrow, I go in for my autism evaluation. Should hear from my gynecologist about how we are going to proceed.
Thursday, being put under (anesthesia) for an EGD.
Friday, Lunar Eclipse, and day of the big storm (we may/may not be impacted).
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(Pay attention to the dates mentioned in the screenshot of that post: March 21st, 2024-March 26th, 2024. Those dates will become relevant again later on related to my stalker situation.)
These pictures were taken on March 11th, 2025. I was taking notes for Part 3 of The Observer Effect. Here is a link to Part 2, which was posted on January 26th, 2025.
March 13th, 2025:
EGD showed that I have a malrotated stomach (among other things) He wants to do some more testing/review my (extensive)medical history. This may/may not require surgery in the future. But this is definitely related to the mild gastroparesis that I have—& perhaps the hiatal hernia they recently found
March 14th, 2025: Kyle comes crawling out of the woodwork. Kyle is the man who has been cyber-stalking me since March. But, it began before that, which I will get into later. I took this screenshot on March 14th, knowing this was him coming back around after a full year of silence, since I blocked him in March-April 2024 for behaviors he would quickly resume.
March 16th, 2025: To show how many Facebook friends I had before everything started to pop off. Also, 'peep' the cover photo:
Foreshadowing (I recorded this scene on March 16th, 2025):
March 17th, 2025: I started to notice that I was getting a lot of Quick Adds/Friend Requests on Snapchat. (This was only the beginning.)
March 19th, 2025: A major blizzard came through while my cat (Daisy) and I were out of town. It knocked the power out of my building for several days. Fortunately, I was staying with my then-partner at the time and Daisy and I were able to avoid being without power for 3+ days.
March 21st, 2025: The irony of this post will soon become apparent.
I am going to stop there for now since there are a lot of images and embedded content in this post. Stay tuned for the next part where things start to take quite the wild turn. Once you see the full timeline of events, you'll understand exactly why it has taken me so long to start posting again—as it fully explains my absence.
Every element of experience—the message, the messenger, the map, and the territory—is an interconnected manifestation stemming from a singular, foundational source. This source might be understood as the super-implicate order, the collective unconscious, or the personal subconscious. Where the distinctions between the tangible and the intangible, the visible and the invisible, merge, meld, and fold into one another.
The message and the messenger are not separate entities but are intertwined aspects of the same unfolding reality. The messenger, in delivering the message, is an expression of the message itself—and cannot exist independently of each other. A message, in its truest form, can only exist and resonate within a medium or messenger that embodies the essence of that message. In other words, for a message to be authentic, it must arise from and be carried by something that shares its fundamental nature. The medium must reflect and resonate with the core of the message for it to be fully realized and understood. Just as a map must conceptually align with the territory it represents, the medium must be a true expression of the message it conveys, allowing the message to genuinely "live" within it. Similarly, the medium is not merely a conduit but an integral part of the message, shaping and reflecting it as a manifestation of the deeper order from which both arise. The act of communication, then, becomes a holistic process where the content and the means of its delivery are two sides of the same coin, inseparable and mutually defining.
The map and the territory also dissolve into one another when viewed from this perspective. The map is not merely a representation of the territory but a conceptual manifestation of the territory within the mind. It reflects the underlying patterns of reality as perceived and understood by the consciousness that creates it. In this sense, the map is the territory, not in a literal, physical sense, but as a conceptual reality that shapes and is shaped by our understanding of the world. The distinctions we draw between the map and the territory, the messenger and the message, are manifestations of a deeper, singular reality from which everything originates. Reality is not composed of separate, distinct parts but is an interconnected web of relationships and energies.
This perspective invites us to move beyond dualistic thinking, where we see the message and the messenger, the map and the territory, as separate. Instead, it calls for an understanding of reality as a unified field where distinctions are fluid and interconnected. In this field, the act of communication, the creation of maps, and the navigation of territories are all part of a single, ongoing process of manifestation and understanding.
However, even while acknowledging this profound interconnectedness, it is also crucial to recognize the importance of not conflating the messenger with the message or the map with the territory in our practical and everyday experience. The recognition of the messenger's or medium's influence should not lead to an overemphasis on these elements to the point where the content itself is overshadowed or distorted. In our current social media landscape, this tendency is particularly pronounced, where influencers and the platforms they use often become the focus, overshadowing the substance of what is being communicated.
"Those who mistake the shadow for the substance, and the substance for the shadow, never attain the reality..." - The Dhammapada
This fixation on the superficial aspects—such as the persona of the messenger or the aesthetics of the medium—can lead to a dilution of the message, where the deeper meaning is lost amidst the noise. The differentiation between the medium and the message, as well as the map and the territory, paradoxically continues to be significant. It serves as a reminder to look beyond the surface, to engage with the content on a deeper level, and to avoid being swayed by the allure of presentation at the expense of substance.
While it's important not to conflate the messenger with the message, there is undeniable value in examining the lives and journeys of sages, Elders, or Adepts—those who have walked the path of transformation to embody the wisdom they share. Their personalities, talents, and experiences act as living embodiments of the lessons they share, demonstrating how their life's path has been a journey of aligning with, absorbing, and expressing these profound truths. By understanding the challenges they faced and the transformations they underwent, we can gain insight into the process of embodying profound knowledge, seeing how the message takes root and lives within the very essence of those who convey it. This exploration provides a fuller appreciation of the wisdom they offer, grounded in the authenticity of their lived experience.
Ultimately, while the medium and message, map and territory, are indeed interconnected and arise from the same underlying reality, there is still value in maintaining a conscious awareness of their differences. This awareness helps us navigate the complexities of communication and understanding without becoming entangled in superficiality. It allows us to sea and appreciate the depths within the waves, understanding that the immovable depths (the Unmoved, the Absolute) serve as the source for the surface activity of the waves (the Moved).
The richness of both the medium and the message, as well as the map and the territory, is essential, all the while staying grounded in the content and the meanings they convey. By balancing these perspectives, we can engage more fully with the messages we receive and the realities we navigate, without losing sight of what truly matters.
"The archetype of the Elder occupies a central role as a custodian of ancient wisdom, a conduit for cosmic knowledge, and a steward of the balance within the universe. Elders are often regarded as beings who have attained a deep, innate understanding of cosmic principles, knowledge that transcends individual lifetimes and encompasses the broader cycles of existence. This wisdom, though not always accessible to the conscious mind, resides deeply within the Elder, influencing their actions and perceptions as they navigate the complexities of both the material and subtler realms.
The role of the Elder is not one of imposing personal will upon the universe; rather, it is one of attunement to the True Will of the Grand Central Self, often referred to in philosophical and theological contexts as the Unmoved Mover. This concept, central to many traditions, posits that there is a fundamental, unchanging source at the heart of all beings—an ultimate reality that drives the unfolding of the cosmos. The Elder, in this sense, functions as a receiver and transmitter of this will, serving as an instrument through which the deeper purposes of the universe are realized.
In their capacity as reality shapers, Elders do not act from a place of dualistic moral judgment. They recognize that positive and negative experiences are essential aspects of the cosmic dance, each serving the other in the grand scheme of existence. The Elder’s role is to guide and shape the flow of events, timelines, or realities, not according to personal desires, but in alignment with the harmonious unfolding of the cosmic order. This shaping of reality is subtle and nuanced, often manifesting as shifts or adjustments that maintain or restore balance within the universe.
Elders are also described as psychic amplifiers, individuals whose energy can magnify or catalyze events in both the astral and physical planes. This amplification is not arbitrary but is deeply connected to the cosmic currents they are attuned to. Through their presence and actions, Elders may intensify or direct the flow of energy, guiding certain outcomes or synchronicities that resonate with the greater cosmic plan. In this way, they act as protectors of balance, ensuring that energies within the cosmos remain in harmony, realigning or rebalancing those that have diverged from their intended course.
The Elder's connection to synchronicity further illustrates their role as architects of the subtle patterns that guide the flow of events. By weaving connections between seemingly unrelated occurrences, they help to create a tapestry of meaning that influences the experiences of others in profound, though often unnoticed, ways. This role requires an understanding of the interconnectedness of all things, where every action and intention reverberates through the quantum fabric of reality.
Quote and still from tv show Touch
The purpose behind the Elder's reality-shifting activities is multifaceted. It may involve correcting divergences in the timeline that, if left unchecked, could lead to outcomes misaligned with the greater cosmic order. These shifts may also present opportunities for learning and growth, not just for the Elder but for all beings connected to the shifts. Furthermore, such shifts may serve as catalysts for necessary changes, accelerating evolution or transformation on both personal and collective levels. Ultimately, the Elder's actions are guided by the fulfillment of a higher purpose, one that transcends ordinary understanding and aligns with the deeper rhythms of the universe.
In subtler dimensions, the Elder is often perceived as a figure of considerable influence and authority, someone who navigates the astral realms with mastery and wisdom. Encounters with others in these realms may reveal the Elder's identity as a leader or guide, recognized for their spiritual depth and their role in maintaining the balance of the cosmos.
In essence, the Elder's journey is one of operating on multiple levels of reality simultaneously, acting as a guardian and conductor of the cosmic order. Their role is essential in maintaining or evolving the balance of the universe, influencing events, timelines, and realities in ways that are both subtle and profound. The archetype of the Elder highlights the extraordinary responsibility and power inherent in this role, as well as the deep connection between individual consciousness and the larger forces that shape existence.
This understanding of the Elder archetype aligns with concepts found in various mythologies, spiritual systems, and even contemporary cultural references, such as the Time Variance Authority (TVA) in Marvel's "Loki" series. Just as the TVA monitors and manages timelines to ensure they flow according to a greater cosmic plan, the Elder’s role involves guiding, correcting, and shaping realities to maintain harmony on a universal scale. While the work of the Elder may often go unseen or misunderstood by others, it is crucial to the integrity of the cosmos.
The Elder represents a vital archetype in the cosmic scheme, serving as a guardian of knowledge, a shaper of reality, and a protector of balance. Through their attunement to the True Will of the Grand Central Self, they act as conduits for the unfolding of the universe’s deeper purposes, ensuring that the flow of events remains in harmony with the greater cosmic order.
The Hermit card in tarot represents a figure who has retreated from the ordinary world to seek deeper wisdom and understanding. This withdrawal is not out of a desire for isolation but out of necessity, to connect with higher truths that transcend everyday existence. The Hermit, like the Elder, is a guardian of knowledge, carrying the light of wisdom in solitude, often misunderstood by those who do not see beyond the surface of their seclusion.
Similarly, the concepts of Ascended Masters and Adepts in esoteric traditions refer to beings who have achieved a high level of spiritual mastery, often after many lifetimes of learning and evolving. These figures are seen as guides and teachers who have transcended ordinary human limitations and now operate from a place of profound wisdom and compassion. Buddhahood, in a parallel sense, represents the ultimate state of enlightenment, where an individual has overcome the cycles of suffering and ignorance, embodying pure awareness and understanding. All these archetypes reflect the Elder's role as a conductor of the True Will of the cosmos, aligned with the essential unity of all existence.
Incarnated Elders, however, are exceedingly rare and often live lives marked by profound misunderstanding and isolation. These individuals, embodying the wisdom and insight of the Elder archetype in physical form, frequently find themselves at the fringes of society. Like the witches in huts beyond the village borders or the shamans at the edge of the camp, they dwell in spaces that are liminal—on the boundaries between the known and the unknown. Their isolation is not a matter of personal choice, but a necessity born of their unique role in the cosmic order.
These incarnated Elders often face extreme hardship and adversity, as their paths are not easily understood by those around them. They are outliers, individuals who walk a solitary path, not because they wish to be alone, but because the depth of their insight and the nature of their work set them apart. Their lives may be marked by trials that serve to deepen their understanding and refine their connection to the cosmos, yet this often comes at the cost of being alienated from the society that cannot comprehend their true purpose.
Bran Stark next to Weirwood Tree in Game of Thrones
In essence, while the Elder archetype is one of immense power and wisdom, the reality of living as an incarnated Elder can be one of profound challenge and solitude. These beings carry the weight of their knowledge and their role in maintaining the cosmic balance, often without recognition or understanding from those around them. Their existence is a testament to the complexities and demands of the Elder's path.
The emergence of an Elder into their role as a custodian of higher wisdom and an influencer of the Quantum Fabric is a process deeply intertwined with the dual forces of suffering and transcendence. This archetype does not simply step into their power; they are often forged in the crucible of immense hardship and profound trials. These experiences, which might break others, serve as initiations that strip away the superficial layers of the self, leaving only the core essence—an essence that is in direct communion with the cosmic currents.
- quote via The OA
For an Elder, the path to wisdom and power is not a journey of ease or privilege. Instead, it is marked by profound suffering, which serves as the raw material for their spiritual and psychic development. This suffering, whether physical, emotional, or existential, is alchemically transmuted within them, turning pain into insight, and adversity into understanding. The process is akin to the ancient practice of alchemy, where base metals are transformed into gold. The Elder's soul, subjected to the fire of trials, emerges purified and strengthened, imbued with a deep connection to the universal truths that govern existence.
This transmutation is not merely symbolic; it has tangible effects on the Elder's being. Their spiritual and psychic powers, which can manifest as heightened intuition, clairvoyance, or the ability to influence reality at a quantum level, are direct results of the suffering they have endured and transcended. These powers are not gifts given freely; they are earned through the relentless confrontation with the deepest aspects of human experience, often at the cost of great personal sacrifice.
Captures and quotes from movieSplit
Yet, this rise in spiritual and psychic abilities comes with a corresponding physical fragility. The Elder's body, having borne the brunt of immense suffering, often becomes frail, vulnerable to the wear and tear of existence. This fragility is not a weakness but rather the other side of the coin of their immense psychic abilities. The more attuned they become to the subtle energies of the cosmos, the more their physical form seems to struggle under the weight of this expanded awareness. It is as though their physical being, bound by the limitations of the material world, cannot fully contain the vastness of their spiritual insight.
From movie Glass: "You Cannot Contain Who You Are"
This inherent dichotomy—the rise of spiritual power alongside physical fragility—inevitably forces the Elder into a state of isolation and contemplation. Their extraordinary awareness, combined with the vulnerability of their physical form, often makes it difficult for them to engage fully with the external world. They find themselves on the periphery of society, not by choice but by necessity, as the demands of their role require them to turn inward, to cultivate their gifts in solitude.
In this isolation, the Elder has no choice but to embrace their role fully. The solitude becomes a crucible in which their powers are further refined, where contemplation leads to greater understanding, and where the vastness of their awareness can be explored without the distractions of the mundane world. It is within this space that they step into their power, not as an act of will, but as a natural progression of their journey. The Elder surrenders to their role as a custodian of higher wisdom, understanding that their isolation is not a punishment but a necessary condition for the cultivation of their gifts.
In this way, the dichotomy of the Elder's emergence is a profound testament to the intertwined nature of suffering and transcendence. Their spiritual and psychic abilities are inseparable from the hardships they have transmuted, and their physical fragility is both a consequence and a complement to their extraordinary awareness. It is a path that demands total surrender to the forces of the cosmos, where every trial, every moment of isolation, is a step further into their role as weavers of the Quantum Fabric and guardians of the universal order. This journey, though marked by immense difficulty, is also one of profound purpose and fulfillment, as the Elder comes to embody the very principles they are charged with upholding."
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